Henderson's Thoughts

Wednesday, 9 May 2007

Questionaire my answers.

I'm 42, female and still in my prime. I am taking Eng Literature with creative & professional writing. Don't know why I'm doing writing as well, cos I'v realised, I'm not all that good. Hell, sometimetimes we just gotta do something thaat we like ain't we, as Calamity Jane would likely say.. It does relate to other topics, but in a lot of ways I have found it a lot easier. I have spent most of my life perfecting the art of being bad, so I reckoned that this would be a n easy and interesting module to pass. Anyway,the list of topics was fine, I would have liked to have seen a lecture on sexual deviancy though. I wouuld recommend this module to anyone without a faint heart. Small group disccussions could have been embarassing, considering the subject matter, not everyone gives a fuck less than me. Over and out, got to go and meet my boyfriend. Too many questions, I have read Stalin and 'Mein Kamp'. One last thing though, it has made me realise that I have been living a lie, Oscar Wilde put it like this, " I hope you have not been leading a double life, pretending to be wicked and being good all the time. " Wilde. The Importance of being Earnest.

Tuesday, 8 May 2007

Under age sex.

Most young people have had under-age sex. It seems really bad to me, when the kid is well below the legal age of consent. I did it at 15 and I think that the age seems to be lowering over the years. Even at 15, I fell that I was too young. When I hear of 10 year olds doing it , I must admit, I feel really sorry for those kids. I have got a 7 year old daughter, and I would be mortified if she had sex in a mere 3 years or so. I don't know why they even want to do it that young, I had only just discovered wanking at 15, for christ's sake. I suppose that it must be peer pressure. It is such a shame, there is never such a lovely, innocent and relaxed time as in childhood, and these children are throwing all of that away, by having sex so young. They are depriving themselves of that time.

Saturday, 5 May 2007

The evils of racism.

I am totally against racism. We live in a society which is supposed to be caring. This city is particularly multi cultural and I think that it is a great place to live as a result of this mix of people. Amoung the animals, we are meant to be the 'great thinker's'. Why then do we have some people who hate other's just because they are different, or have a different skin colour? I have never thought that certain races of people are all the same. There is good and bad in all races. In the caucasians, the bad people are the racists, who hate certain ethnic groups, generally for no reason, except their being different. This is food for thought; if we think that we humans are superiorto all of the other animals in the world, why is it then, that you never see a say white horse, or black horse horse picking on another horse just because it is brown. If a racist party, such as the BNP ever got into office in this country, I think that I would move abroad again.

Friday, 4 May 2007

Abortion

Black Uhuru, the reggae band once wrote a song entitled, "Abortion, abortion, you got to have caution". I couldn't agree more. Abortion can be a very upsetting and painful experience. I have never had to have one, thankfully. I think that abortion is bad. I wish that people would take contraception, so that it dosen't have to be done. There is plenty of contraception available today, totally free of charge, so I don't really think that is much excuse not to be taking it, if you are having sexual relations. I believe that life is very preciuos. Also, I know a lot of women who cannot have children and I feel sorry for them. I once had a friend, who was older enough to know better, who was just too lazy to get off her butt and go and get contraception off her doctor. Consequently, she kept having abortions to get rid of the unwanted child. I am no longer friends with her, I didn't admire her stupid attitude regarding this and thought that she was a complete idiot. If someone has been raped, of course they may well want an abortion, but they can also consider giving the baby up for adoption as well. There are plenty of childless people out there. Abortion can affect people for life. I have a freind, who regrets having her's many years ago and it still pains her now. I am not totally against abortions, but would rather women wouldn't rush off to have one, without real considerations of alternative options.

Thursday, 3 May 2007

lying

Everybody lies a bit, especially on their cv. We all have discrepancies in our working life. It is pretty much normal to lie as well, i f a woman asks,' does my bum look big in this' ?. Men, if they have any sense of decency and don't want to get a premenstrual 'beating', will invariably answer 'no dear, you look lovely'; if they have any sense, thaat is. I have met some who have been extremely tactless and rude, in the past. They did'nt last very long. One even had the audacity to say that my fanny was too big these days and that was only because he had fucked me when I was a virgin and we fucked again several years later. Of course it felt bigger than it had before. I thought at the time, bollocks to you, maybe it 's because your dick isn't big enough; but still, it has still given me a complex, a bit for the rest of my life. No one else has ever complained, however. This is one of the reasons why I believe that it sometimes alright to tell a little white lie, you can save peoples feelings. Lying on a large scale though is not something that I would say do. Sir Walter Scott once said, " Oh what a tangled web we weave, when we first deceive". (The Times, 3rd may 2007, 4). I couldn't agree more with this quote. I tangled myself into a massive web 15 years ago, This is the story, I hope it is a useful warning to make people think twice before they lie. I had a boyfriend, he was a lovely chap, but I had realise that we were not 'meant to be'. We argued all the time fora start. Anyway, I tried to dump him several times, but every time that I tried, he would start to cry, and I would feel bad and take him back. So, for this reason, I hatched what I thought was a cunning plot. I said that I was at a time in my life when I wanted to fulfill a life-long dream. This was to go to Thailand for a month or two. I bought a 'Rogh guide to Thailand ' book, I pretended to go and get all of the necessary injections and I gave up my job. He was so nice that he said, " I don't mind if you do it, I don't want you to miss out on your dreams just for me"He even said that he would 'wait for me to return'. I never even went. I just changed fuckin jobs and moved. I got caught out and embarrassed, serves me right really. Some friend of his bumped into me after about a month, then I saw other people who knew me, and all they said was "How was Thailand?", and this idiot here had to make it all up. I'm not sure whether everyone was convinced by my bullshit, but the poor guy was, bless him. I should have had the guts to be honest and stick to my decisions, it has proved how stupid and weak that I can be. Don't think that lying is always an easy way out of difficult things, it is't.

Wednesday, 2 May 2007

Euthanasia.

I would be happy if somebody would put me out of my misery sometimes. I believe that euthanasis can be the kindest thing to do for someone that you care about, under certain circumstances. If a person is very ill, in a lot of pain or that their quality of life is vitually nil; I would say the it is the best thing to do for them. Sometimes people actually request to be killed, rather than carrying on living, even so, it is still illegal in a lot of countries. I do not see why it should remain illegal. If a person has not requested to die then it is a more tricky issue. Even under those circumstances however, I still think that there are times when it is still for the best of the person involved. They may be in such a vegetative state, or too ill to request it. Some might say that it could be a very good way of someone getting away with murder, but even so, I think that ti should be legalised and I think that it should be regulated. If sometimes a mistake may be made, if it is legalised, who can argue that it is any worse than when the death penalty was in force in this country and then sometimes mistakes were made. It is'nt any worse than that, I don't think.

Tuesday, 1 May 2007

My Response to Dave's Post:

Dave's Post:

Stalking
I've got this friend. Well, I used to have this friend: I'm not sure what she is now. I expressed a romantic (for want of a better word) interest and now she won't talk to me. Well, she won't arrange to meet and talk to me. She doesn't respond to phone calls, texts, e-mails, anything. This bugs the fuck out of me. We used to be very good friends, and I would like to know what I've 'done wrong.' It seems my only option is to call on her, or engineer a 'chance meeting' in the street. I have a very strong urge to do this. If I make just one attempt, does this count as stalking? Friends seem to think it doesn't, but I still feel a bit odd about it. Announcing it on the internet is a pretty crap way to start a career as an obsessive weirdo. Whatever, it's another blog entry and something to talk about with my counsellor.If you've got head problems of any kind, you really should try the university counselling service. It's bloody good and it's free.

My Response:

I think that I need to heed your advice about the free counselling Dave. However, I don't think that you should go any near this girl that you are talking about. I have had so called friends, who have suddenly dumped me like a hot brick, without any explanation and I know how hurtful it can be; but the truth is, you will one day meet someone who will be more deserving of your 'wierdness', as you call it and uni has got to be one of the best places to find someone. I have been stalked myself, on one occasion and it does not help the 'stalkie' or the stalker to move on and have a happy life. Happy hunting looking for your new Miss Right.